Wednesday, December 22, 2010

I Hate You

I hate you every day passes when I found out I can’t get you out of me anymore..

I hate you more when I remember the “NOT KNOWING” phase you were always putting me in.. Asking myself every day are we together? Are we not?

I hate you more when I remember the “WAITING” position you were always leaving me in.. Waiting for a single word for days and you have no idea how it’s like to be me waiting for you..

I hate you more for making me love you that much.. I don’t forgive you loving you that much.. I don’t forgive myself loving you that much.

I hate you more when I remember the sweetness of our beginnings were, how sweet you were, how loving, how passionate..

I hate you more when I remember the cruelty of the ending was, how cold you were, how cruel..

And when I’m thinking of you I don’t know should I curse you or just keep crying in silence.

I know now that I’m good enough not to deserve this.. not to feel like this.. not to love you so much that I hate you..

One day I’ll be over you.. I’ll hear your name and won’t feel that shaver I used to feel all over me anymore..

One day when you come back you won’t find me waiting for you..

One day I’ll be able to say I “……” you

All what I wish for is to see this day coming before I die..

Posted by at 4:37 AM

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  2. WOW just I'm amazed just by reading this , in fact I had to read it a second time , there feeling of pure raw emotions in what you wrote, and the image of what this has done to you just speaks to me so clearly. all I can really say is that i love reading this and that one day you will be able to get over this, I know this cause in reading what you wrote, i can feel the burning passion and feel the strength from within your self.

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  3. @Brave Heart a circle no starting or ending point..

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  4. @chaotixfusion i felt at some point it's too cruel piece , full of hate feelings more than love , but it ended with more and more love and being captivated to what hurting u the most..

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