Three

It’s too hard when you found your happiness in what you can’t have.. And I commit suicide by loving you ..

I was getting the best feeling in the world when you say Hi .. Cause I knew even if it’s for a second.. I crossed your mind..

I used to feel happy just to feel you are around, there was nothing to do, nothing to say, enough you were around .. Everything changes while you were around..

They say nothing lasts .. Why can’t I stop loving you then? Why do I miss you more than I can bear?

To not feel much yearning I had to carve you in my eyes to see you all the day long, and even when I close my eyes..

To not feel too much yearning I had to smell you more.. to inhale you with every breath..

But you left suddenly.. you didn’t give me the chance even to say goodbye..

You left like every time.. How many times? Can you remember? How many times I believed you and you disappointed me?

Three times.. And every time I tell myself don’t believe him.. he lies.. he doesn’t love you.. And every time I fall for your lies..

Why for GOD’s sake he’s brilliant in hurting you that much if he loves you? I was keep asking myself that question.. And I was knowing the answer but I stubbornly have chosen to believe that you loved me one day.. And I got screwed pretty hard by your lies..

Last time when you said “ I felt I’ve got what was missing in my life” I believed you.. like always.. And I just gave you the chance to hurt me one more time..

To hurt me one more last time.